Goodbye to the Grinch

Christmas is my favorite time of year. I love the spirit and the joy associated with celebrating my Savior’s birth. For me it is especially magical. Three years ago I passed court on November 30. I left San Diego for Ethiopia December 23. And I held my tiny baby for the first time December 25. Although our family day gets lost in the bustle of Christmas, stored in my heart is that first Christmas with Dori. I don’t ever forget it.

This year is tough. My heart is in one place and circumstances are leading me in another direction. I am in a waiting place right now with no clear direction or end of the road. I HATE WAITING AND UNCERTAINTY and it is just tough. The worst part is that I am letting circumstances steal my joy.

Tonight Dori asked me if I liked her – more than once. She has never asked that before.  While I am sure she is secure in the knowledge that I love her, I wonder if I am letting circumstances steal some of her joy.  Being a mom means wallowing in misery includes dragging down the family to hang out in the muck too.  While I am perfectly fine passing this Christmas season having a big ol’ pity party I cannot think of anything worse than dimming the light of my precious Christmas light.

So goodbye Grinch, bring on the carols.  Christmas is the time I received my two greatest gifts and I am going to celebrate.

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About Beth

I am Jesus lover and single mom.
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4 Responses to Goodbye to the Grinch

  1. Harmony says:

    Are you adopting again? Did I miss that? I have been so busy I have had a hard time enjoying Christmas. I’m hoping to slow down next week and let it sink in. So, “Good Bye Grinch” for me too 🙂

  2. Sunday says:

    Beth, will keep you in prayer…call me if you need to talk. The waiting is desperately hard and the ups and downs just get the best of you sometimes. I need an update soon. 🙂 Thinking of you and Dori. Merry Christmas!

  3. Mal's mama says:

    I love the pic of Dori! bring on the joy, mama. I, too, feel I steal some of mal’s joy sometimes

  4. Beth says:

    Hi Harmony,
    I am in the “I really want to do this but need things to come together before I can ” stage of adopting another child. I believe I have decided that we will be adding to our family, when and how is the question. Of course I would like it to be in the coming year but I may have to wait.

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